Sometimes I wish I could just be secksy.

Oh What A World This Life Could Be

So, it turns out that my life is not as tumultuous as I first perceived it to be. Which is great right?! Thankfully, I am NOT failing any of my classes! Which is quite amazing, if I do say so myself.

However, do you ever feel like you could be doing something so much better with you life? Lately, I've felt this way. I feel like I become too headstrong about meaningless things such as clothing, Facebook, my weight, men, and even my blog... I feel like I could be doing something so much more meaningful with this short time I have. I need to "go do," as Jonsi would say. But what am I going to do? How can I make a difference in this vast wheat field when I am merely one grain? I need inspiration. Because this just won't do.

I guess I'll have to stew over this... speaking of which, I'm hungry.

Sad Silly Stories of My Sort of Sad, Silly Satirical Soul

Within past month or two I feel as if I have gone through hell and back again. Literally. My grandmother, whom I was very close to, passed away, my uncle passed away last Wednesday, I have not been doing well in any of my classes, I flunked a Biology test, I just received the "just friends" talk, discovered that money is the worst thing to have between a loving family and the crowning bright red cherry on top of this melting sundae is the fact that I feel apathetic towards the most important thing in my life.
Needless to say, I've been stressed. However, I know that everyone goes through these awful experiences. Heck, there are people out there that don't have ANYTHING. Therefore, through this mess I've decided to be thankful for what I have (even though it might be slightly crappy). Being thankful and at least slightly optimistic, in my opinion, is far better than stewing in my own stress and selfishness.
Hopefully, the sun will come up soon.

Uncle Dale Died Today of a Massive Heart Attack.

I'm upset. Nay, devastatingly upset. I feel as if things just suck right now.

I'm so upset that I can't even write anything on my blog that wouldn't be profane or inappropriate.

I hate it when people die.

Romanticism is fleeting within my aging life

So here's the thing; I may or may not go on a rant within the next ten seconds. Prepare yourselves.

First of all, my love life is once again dormant.

Second, why do these things need to be so complicated? Now I know, of all people, that these are words better said than done. However, I feel like it shouldn't be that hard to tell someone that you admire them. I mean, correct me if I'm wrong, but isn't that a compliment by saying, "Hey, I really like you, because of the following reasons?" Shouldn't people bask in the compliment of someone finding them attractive and just plain great? And, again, this is easier said than done, but I just wish it wasn't completely improbable to the phlegmatic mind.

Third, I feel like I just can't get guys to be attracted to me. Now I know what you're thinking, "Oh come on, it's not that hard, and plus you are a girl! And boys like girls! (no pun intended)." Well, the fact of the matter is that I haven't had an admirer/lover, or whatever you wish to name it, for over a year and a half; since I broke up with my serious boyfriend. This sucks. I just feel like no matter what I do, I just can't be more than a friend to any male humanoid  I encounter.

Ef.